Whoa...6 months since my last post...slacker here ~ Anyway, I'm going to try to blog a little more this year...and I mean actually blog. So, here goes...
Who is in your space?
I started my Mary Kay business back in April of 2011 and so far I haven't been very consistent or dedicated. Today I realized why. I don't have a goal. I sat and thought about it and honestly, I don't really have a goal for anything! I've never been good at the "Where do you see yourself in 5 years?" question. I hate that question to be honest. I've never been good at the long term thing. I take things one day at a time and live my life in the present. I am terrible at saving money and terrible at planning for things that aren't happening right now.
This brings me to today. I attended a seminar on building my business and one of the questions was "where do you want to be?" Well, I have no idea! Yea, moving up and selling more and recruiting others and sharing the opportunity all sounds awesome and amazing and is something I would love to be involved with but, I don't know that I can see myself there. I sat and asked myself why it was that I really couldn't see the future. I'm still not really sure but, I do think that there is a tiny part of me that fears failure. Yes, me, I fear failure.
For anyone that knows me this is an odd statement to come out of my mouth. I took the Bar Exam 7 times and passed on the 7th time. Actually, it may have been 8...I lost count. I was focused on what I had to do, not focused on how many times it would take to get there. I had people in my corner telling me that I could do it. They didn't care how many times I had tried they were still behind me. So, why do I all of the sudden fear failure in something? I'm sitting here typing and I'm still not totally sure. I do think it may have something to do with those you allow in your space.
Thus bringing me to the topic of this blog. Who is in your space? Who do you allow to be around you and influence your mood and thoughts and actions? I'm talking about everyone you surround yourself with too. Co-workers, friends, family, etc. Are they positive people? Do they tell you of their success or do they do nothing but complain? In the last 5 years my life has had some pretty crazy ups and downs. (I'm still searching for the meaning behind the downs.) **Warning - Religion talk ** God puts people in our path for a reason. Some of them are there to help us and others are there to stall us. God allows you to choose who you want to keep around. Do you allow the devil to put those negative people in your path and let them stay? Or do you keep moving? Do you rise above the negative and shoot to find the positive people? I know I have my days where I just want to sit and sulk and sometimes I allow myself to sit in that for a little bit. It is almost like a break from working hard to stay positive and find the good in everything. My best friend likes to joke that I am too nice. No, I just prefer to not waste my energy on negative people. It takes a lot out of you to stay mad at someone or harbor anger. It is easier to just push that aside and search for the positive, even if that means leaving that negative person behind.
So, I sat and made my little boxes and filled in those that I speak to on a daily basis and then those that I talk to on a more limited basis. I looked at each person and realized who was a burden and who was a positive influence. You can't change people but you can limit your contact with them and you can choose if you keep them in your life. This is where I sit now. I have to make decisions on if I want to keep those in my life that more of a burden than a benefit. It is these burdens that are dragging me down and making me question myself on things.
It all comes down to the fact that I need to sit and pray on things. I need to get myself to a place where I can set goals and be able to see where I want to be in 5 years. I know this isn't going to happen over night but I think that slowly but surely I will get to where I am supposed to be. If I wasn't on the right path things would be preventing me from moving forward at all...
Saturday, January 14, 2012
Friday, May 27, 2011
Project 365 - May 27, 2011
May 27, 2011 ~ So now that I am all Mary Kay I have to let my creative side out to really drive home some of the stuff. The sets that people order don't come all packaged and pretty. I found this pink basket at Target and figured I could put it to use. This one will need a little work but I think it has potential.
Project 365 - May 26, 2011
May 26, 2011 ~ Well, I am officially in with Mary Kay...HMU if you want a facial! LOL
Project 365 - May 25, 2011
May 25, 2011 ~ First, happy birthday to my Dad! Second, I got to go see a playoff game in Tampa tonight! A friend had an extra ticket and asked if I wanted to go. I wasn't going to turn this down and it was a great game.
Project 365 - May 24, 2011
May 24, 2011 ~ I tried to play hockey tonight. It was not the best idea as my ankle was killing me before the game even started. So, I will not be playing for at least another week...or more.
Project 365 - May 23, 2011
May 23, 2011 ~ Tonight was the Cage the Elephant show at HOB. It was a great time with my girls....as it always is. I swear we have a live music addiction!
Project 365 - May 22, 2011
May 22, 2011 ~ When I first started this project I figured most of my pictures would be hockey related but I'm starting to think I have more posts about food! HA! So, since I am moving at the end of June I have started to make an effort to clean out my freezer and cabinet. Tonight I made steak. I had to broil it in the oven because I don't currently have a grill. It actually came out really good and I was rather proud of myself.
Project 365 - May 21, 2011
May 21, 2011 ~ I went and watched my friend's son play t-ball this morning. These kids are a riot to watch and Thomas is pretty good for his age. I hope he sticks with it.
Project 365 - May 20, 2011
May 20, 2011 ~ I had to run out to Downtown Disney to pick up tickets for a show and since I was in the area I figured I needed to make a stop at Bongos for a snack. :)
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Project 365 - May 18, 2011
May 18, 2011 ~ I finally went and got my battery changed on my E-Pass...That place is almost as bad as the DMV!
Project 365 - May 16, 2011
May 16, 2011 ~ It had rained over the last couple days and the weather had finally cooled off. It was so nice to leave work and drive with the windows down. It was even better to come home shut of the AC and open the doors.
Project 365 - May 15, 2011
May 15, 2011 ~ Today was Sunday, which means Surf Shop day. I was trying to get excited about being at work...this was as close as I got. :) I did find a new pair of shade that I want though.
Project 365 - May 14, 2011
May 14, 2011 ~ Jon, Kristina's brother, had his baby on Friday. I dropped by the hospital to see the baby and the new parents. Baby Jaysen was born on Friday the 13th. :)
After visiting the new baby I went to Anthony's 2nd birthday party.
Project 365 - May 13, 2011
May 13, 2011 ~ So, because my best friend was so awesome for getting me out of the house on Wednesday I returned the favor and limped through the mall for her while she was at work. I had to find her a couple things before she left on her trip. So, I found her stuff then stopped for a Gyro at the Greek Jalapeno (yes, Greek and Mexican food). The name was a little weird but the food was great.
For anyone who is friends with me on FourSquare you will understand my laugh in this. I made sure to check in at the mall while I was shopping for my friends stuff and it ended with me sitting at the train tracks on my way home.
Project 365 - May 12, 2011
May 12, 2011 ~ This is what happens in our office when you are gone for a day. You end up with weird things on your desk. This was a student's resume. It was their idea of being creative for an interview session they had on Wednesday. It just came off a little creepy that it was on my desk but in all reality it was my co-workers way of being funny.
Project 365 - May 11, 2011
May 11, 2011 ~ I could barely walk on my ankle this morning so I opted to work from home because driving a stick shift with a busted left foot hurts...So, I spent the day here on the couch with my foot up iced...
Thankfully I have an amazing best friend. She came down and picked me up so that I could get out of the house for a bit. We went and got dinner at Perkins...don't laugh. So yea, this is the fried chicken biscuits and gravy breakfast...it was nothing short of awesome.
Project 365 - May 10, 2011
May 10, 2011 ~ It seems that it had been too long since I had an injury. Tonight I was checked into the boards but a lovely jerk and the result was my ankle being sprained...
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